Monday, April 20, 2009

He Is Always Teaching Me

God is obviously trying to teach me to just enjoy the everyday, little things. I had to go to the doctor today. It wasn't something I had planned on doing. I didn't have an appointment weeks ago but I did have a problem that rendered a doctor's opinion. 
As some of you know, I had cataract surgery back in October. My eyes have been great since with no complications at all. Praise the Lord!!! Well, last week, one of my eyes started to dilate randomly. I noticed it a couple of times while looking in the mirror and Charles noticed it as well. I didn't think that much about it until I saw a friend of mine, who happens to work for the doctor who did my surgery, yesterday at church. I told her what was going on and she said I needed to go have it checked out. I am not sure what I thought she would say. The words,"That is completely normal" come to mind. But this kind of scared me. What was going on? Needless to say, I did not sleep well last night. I was plagued with questions. Do I have something really bad? What if I have a brain tumor or aneurysm? I was really scared. All I could think about was my children and my husband. How would we get through this? (I know exactly how we would, with God, but I sure didn't want to have to do it). So I made the appointment today. Strangely enough, he could see me today. That NEVER happens. Was that good or bad? On my way there, I thought about my 3 precious children, my wonderful husband, all my extended family and friends. Each of them is amazing and has been put in my life by God. How was I going to tell them if this was not good news? My worried self was taking over quickly. So I did the only thing I could do. I prayed. " Lord, I don't know what is going on but, You do. I don't want to worry. I want to trust You. Help me do that." The whole time the radio had been on and I wasn't really listening. I started to hear the song. I wish I could remember the song that was playing. It spoke straight to my heart. God did know what was going on and He was right there with me. I finally had peace. 
I am very happy to report that everything is fine. My doctor said it is probably caused by stress or sinus headaches. THANK YOU GOD!!!! I have looked at my children countless times today and just watched them. I have looked at Charles and just thanked God for giving me more days with him. With all of them. I know that it did not have to work out this way. I could be sitting here telling you a whole different story. Thankfully, I am not. But why does it take something like this to remind me that everyday is important. Every moment is important. Depending on Him is Most Important. Lord, help me not forget what I have learned today.